Dear Me: I Love You

The picture you see is a doodle I made last night.  I looked in the mirror at myself and the negative inner dialogue started.  I had to stop myself though.  I decided to invite “Positive” inside and push the negative out.  I started telling myself things like, “You can do this.  You will succeed.  You are great.  You are beautiful.  You are successful.”  I wrote this out and took a picture of it so that I could constantly remind myself of these words.  My inner voice is terrible and unloving sometimes.  I had to silence it last night with positive words of love to myself.

How important is it to love yourself?  It’s the first part of loving others.  Believe in what the Bible says or not, you have to agree that “Love your neighbor as you love yourself,” is a GREAT verse (Matthew 22:39).  Have you ever noticed that we tend to focus on the loving your neighbor part but not the loving yourself?  This seems like the key to the entire verse.  How can you love others if you don’t love yourself?  I battle with this too so I’m talking to myself.  I just wanted to share what I’ve been thinking about lately.

Love yourself so that you CAN love others effectively.  Take time for yourself – just a little bit each day.  If you never give yourself any time, you will begin to resent others when they ask for help.  Do something that makes you happy.  Write in a journal, read a book, take a walk, go to the gym – show yourself love so that you can show your love to others.  It’s important.

Dear Me: I love you.

I’m Sensitive

Sensitive is a part of myself I’ve been trying to change for years. Today I woke up and thought, “Why?” Why is it that I’m trying to change who I really am? I’m not overly sensitive (At least I don’t think I am). I’m just Jane…
1. I cry during chick flicks (although at the time I’ll try to play it off like I just have a stuffy nose).
2. I still wish I was a princess. You should have seen my wedding dress – so Cinderella…tiara and all.
3. My favorite color is pink. Any shade, any hue…love it all.
4. I love hearts. Seriously – I see something with hearts on it and I’m like a moth to a flame.
5. I try to act tough. I’m probably 25% tough and 75% falling apart. I play the tough part really well though.
6. I’m a sucker for a red rose. I know it’s cliche but I can’t help it. They’re so pretty! Sometimes I think God invented them just for me.
7. I love makeup. I work out of a home office and I still do my makeup every day. Gotta feel pretty at all times.
8. I believe shaving your legs is one of the most important parts of feeling beautiful. No joking. On fat days, I force myself to shave my legs and I suddenly feel like a sexy, shiny goddess. How can a girl feel sexy when she has a forest on her legs?
9. I am a hopeless romantic but I’ll never say it out loud. One of those parts of me I try to pretend doesn’t exist.
10. I love things that sparkle. Diamonds, makeup, vampires…I love it all.

This song by Jewel probably explains my personality the best.

I’m Sensitive
I was thinking that I might fly today
Just to disprove all the things you say
It doesn’t take a talent to be mean
Your words can crush things that are unseen
So please be careful with me, I’m sensitive
And I’d like to stay that way.
You always tell me that is impossible
To be respected and be a girl
Why’s it gotta be so complicated?
Why you gotta tell me if I’m hated?
So please be careful with me, I’m sensitive
And I’d like to stay that way.
I was thinking that it might do some good
If we robbed the cynics and took all their food
That way what they believe will have taken place
And we’ll give it to anybody who has some faith
So please be careful with me, I’m sensitive
And I’d like to stay that way.
I have this theory that if we’re told we’re bad
Then that’s the only idea we’ll ever have
But maybe if we are surrounded in beauty
Someday we will become what we see
‘Cause anyone can start a conflict
It’s harder yet to disregard it
I’d rather see the world from another angle
We are everyday angels
Be careful with me ’cause I’d like to stay that way